||[Feb. 15th, 2004|11:52 pm]
|||||Blink 182- "What Went Wrong"||]|
That last comment was uhh, well disregard that. I'm still workin on my greatest journal. Until then, it's this. Yea. It's the day after Valentines Day. I HATE THAT FUCKING DAY! God damn. >:O. Well, i just got back from pulse and am depressed again. I feel so alone. Everyone has someone. But not me. I'm alone. All by myself. Yep. So, i hurt myself yesterday. It was out of really bad depression though. And i did it assuring that i wouldnt cut that deep. So no one go psycho on me. Just ignore the fact that you just read that. Yea, so at pulse there was this one hott kid. I never did find out his name.. he was a blonde skater who had like long hair that flipped out. He was sexy. I must put him at #80 on my bang list. Yes, he was THAT hott! Anyways, I kept wanting to go talk to him but knowing me, i dont have that kind of courage. So later on, Gwen went over to him and told him i thought he was hot... despite me telling her not too. And he says "Wow, she's cute too...but i'm not single. =/" Fucking words. I hate them. For once someone thinks im.. "cute"... (must be blind) and hes got a fucking girlfriend. Should i just give up now? I feel lost. And alone like i said. Post a comment if you give a shit. Otherwise, don't worry about me.
I'll just go marry Matt Thiessen. <3
*ThE OnLy BrOkEn HeArTeD LoSeR YoU'LL eVeR NeEd.*
"I'm sick of always hearing all those sad songs on the radio. All day it is there to remind of an oversensitive guy that is lost and alone, yea. I hate our favorite restaurant, our favorite movie, our favorite show. We would stay up all through the night, we would laugh and get high, never answer the phone. I cant forgive, cant forget, cant give in what went wrong cuz you said this was right... you fucked up my life."